Monday, July 16, 2012
I was talking to a friend of mine the other day about life and she challenged me to pick up my computer again and start blogging. I have to admit, I really do miss pouring my heart out with every keystroke and life has been nothing short of challenging for me over these past few months. I am not the same person I was even three years ago and I wish I could put to rest my past and all of my faults/mistakes from it. Why does human nature dictate that what we were in the past be what people decide is how we should be in the present? Why can't we accept the fact that people grow up, mature and move on with their lives? I used to party and drink alot. To the detriment of those around me, I was so insecure about love and life that I ended up hitting rock bottom. I lost my friends, got laid off from my job, and was absolutely miserable. Somebody called me psycho a few years ago and looking back, I would have to agree with their opinion of me. I was not mentally healthy. Right now I am finishing up my Master's Degree in Professional Counseling. I look at where I was then versus now, and I am in such a better place mentally. My point in all of this is to merely state that one has to be healthy in order to be stable in life. I feel much calmer and much more content with my situation and my status in life. It doesn't take much to make me happy and I have a heart for those who do not know the peace of God like I have come to experience. I have surrendered all of myself to the grace of God. Without Yahweh I am nothing.